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Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Weird Things...

Well, a lot of weird things have been happening to me. My chuch just went through a like... I don't know how to describe it... a break up kind of. Anyway, I was very very involved in church, I mean, I had things going on every single night at church and I made sacrifices so that I could be at church, and now we aren't going to church anymore and this is like a big thing for me because I have been going to that church since I was 6 years old and all of a sudden I get back from Mexico and we aren't going there anymore. When i heard about it I didn't really understand, but after a day, it sank in and if you even mentioned church or did anything that reminded me of church i would just break down and start crying. Now I am not so touchy and I don't reallly want to have anything to do with what First Baptist is doing. I mean I still love the people but if I'm not gonna go there, then I want to give it up completly, or it was just be to hard to get over the fact that we don't go there anymore. Anyway I guess I needed to get this out in the open because now i feel much better. :) There has also been a lot of things changing in regular life too, like school just got out and now I have the days all to myself! But now that I school is out, I have like NOTHING going on and it is freaky! because I usually don't have enough time for me. So now that I have NOTHING going on it's a big change for me. Luckily school is starting again in a month and things will kind of be going back to normal. Its just the nights will be free (which I am kind of looking forward to!) Anyway thanks for reading this!
Hearts ya!

Jessi :)

3 Comments:

Blogger Richcrockett said...

Hi Jessi,
glad to see on the blog... hope you stop in on drum4jc too. i liked your post, as it was very sincere. i knew others weere grappling with the emotions of leaving fbc, so i want to encourage you to continue to ask questions and write about your feelings. take care!

richcrockett

9:23 AM  
Blogger Susie said...

Thank you for sharing your thougts on this in such a public way, Jess. Keep on writing and processing it all. Ask us your questions, I know it can't always be easy being in the midst of all that you are right now. You are on the brink of so much, and I am so proud of everything you are becoming...

10:40 AM  
Blogger Jessi said...

thank you guys and ladies for the support!

9:04 PM  

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